The Sacred Lies of Minnow Bly - Couverture souple

Oakes, Stephanie

Couverture souple

ISBN 10 : 0147510163 ISBN 13 : 9780147510167

Editeur : Penguin Young Readers Group, 2016

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Chapter 1

I am a blood-soaked girl.

Before me, a body. Pulped. My boots drenched with his blood. I search out his eyes, but they’re gone, hidden away behind pale lids.

My breath comes hard and white in the freezing air. Inside each breath is the understanding that this is how it feels, controlling someone, bending their body to your will.

I wonder if this is how the Prophet felt the moment he ordered my hands ripped from me.

Above, a car races across the bridge with a metal shudder. Fingernail-sized flakes of snow fall through the yellow haze of streetlights, and a few cold stars blink in a dark sky. I want to hold my hand flat to catch the snowflakes like I used to when I was little. But, I remind myself, my hands are gone, and I’m not five anymore. The girl I used to be could almost be dead.

I hunker beside a snowbank, watching the red on the ground slowly ice over. I feel suddenly cold. Colder than even the outside air. Colder than I’ve ever been in my life.

Chapter 2

When the police arrive they are blurry white shapes, like ghosts, stuffed inside tight blue uniforms. My eyes can’t follow their features. One moment, I grasp an eye, a nose, but it slips away just as quickly and all I sense are their voices, scribbling over the light of the new morning. The ruined mess of the boy’s body is shoved inside an ambulance, and it screams down the street.

The cops try handcuffing me around my stumps, but the metal slides off. I bite my lip against the cold steel grating over my newborn pink skin.

“Do we even need to cuff her?” one cop mutters.

“Look at what she did,” the other insists. “You saw the kid, looked like he’d been run over.”

“But, just look at her.”

Look at me. My arms are crossed over my stomach and, at the end of the arms, an absence of hands, of fingers, of fists, of nails. Of any way to fight back. I feel the cops’ eyes inch over the homespun trousers and the disgusting rag of a shirt Jude gave me, the fabric blazoned with blood.

In the end, they squeeze the cuffs around my elbows, the pressure nearly popping my shoulders from the sockets, but I don’t scream. I don’t say anything. I feel like I have said enough for my entire life.

Chapter 3

My first view of the city is from a police car. I stare out the thumbprinted window as the sun peels back over buildings locked in by snowfall.

“You better hope he lives,” one of the cops says, and suddenly the boy is all I can see again—the broken face, teeth chucked in the snow. My veins are still tight from adrenaline.

· · ·

At the police station, it’s wood walls and stained ceiling tiles. The smell of charred coffee.

They are discussing the best way to fingerprint me.

“It must be done,” they say. “How will we identify her without fingers?” Just like that, they’ve said something I’ve felt for months but never said aloud. One of them leafs through a police manual, searching for the proper procedure, while the other pushes each stump into a pad of ink and presses them onto paper. Two warped black ovals in a field of white.

“Looks like we only need a DNA sample,” the first one says, glancing up from the manual. He rummages in a drawer and pulls out a small square of cotton, unwraps it, and holds it before me. “Spit.”

“You want my spit?”

“Just do it.”

I gather up all the moisture I can in my mouth and let it fall to the cotton square. He closes it in a small plastic box with a sliding lid and places it on his desk.

The mug shot they take burns half circles into my vision, worse than any firelight. I clamp my arm to my eyes, and they have to lead me with their hands to a sterile examination room. When I crack my eyes open, I see they’ve faced me toward a tight-sheeted bed with stirrups, pushed against a tile wall. Beside the bed, a tray with tongs and a flat white depressor. A dark blond woman takes me by the shoulder and walks me toward the bed. I balk.

“It’s okay,” she says. “It’s procedure in abuse cases.”

She’s got her head turned to the side, and I see myself as she must see me, skinny, filthy, and handless, wearing clothes that smell of blood.

“I—I don’t need that,” I say, avoiding looking at the bed. “Nothing like that happened.”

“Are you sure?” she asks, and the feeling of her eyes skating over my body makes me itch. I want to get angry, but I just give her a sharp nod.

She needs to take pictures to document my injuries, so she leads me to a plastic bin of clothes the color of dishwater and lets me choose underwear. I lever up a beige pair of underpants and, though I can tell they’ve been laundered, somehow they hold the shape of other girls still, the ones who came through here before me.

Behind a blue paper curtain, she tugs away my trousers and shirt till there’s nothing left but skin, naked feet on tile, my body a sliver of white. I’ve never seen it like this before, so bare, blotches of blood still stuck to my skin. She doesn’t know it, but the blood isn’t mine.

They haven’t told me yet if the boy from the bridge is dead.

The woman eases the underpants up my legs, fits a bra over my chest. I roll my shoulders beneath the tight elastic as she lifts my trousers from the floor. With a soft clatter, an object falls from the pocket. We stare at it, a skeletal hand held together at the joints with golden wire.

“What’s that?” she asks.

I hold up a stump to show her.

Her mouth drops so low, the bags under her eyes go taut. After a tick, she fixes her features back to normal, just the same way I remember people in the Community doing after witnessing some everyday atrocity. We didn’t linger on those things. The cows needed milking, and the daylight was wasting, and somewhere there was always a baby wailing for one of its mothers.

The policewoman reaches in my other trouser pocket, lifts out the second hand, and places both on a silver tray.

“Will I get them back?”

Her head tilts to the side again. “That won’t be possible.”

“Why not?”

“They’re human remains. There are laws about things like that.” She clears her throat. “They’ll be held as evidence, and when they’re no longer needed, they’ll be incinerated.”

“Burned?” I choke. Not burned. Anything but burned. “You can’t do that. They’re my hands,” I shout, trying to shove past her. “Give them back!”

She rolls her fingers into a fist and blocks me with an arm across my chest. “If you force me, I will subdue you.”

The skin around her mouth is bunched with lines deep and thin as needles. When I don’t move, she picks up the tray and leaves the room. She returns a minute later, the tray empty.

And it’s then that I realize the Prophet’s not the only one capable of taking a girl’s hands away.

Chapter 4

When I’m marched to the police car, the two cops from earlier are already inside, eyes tight and sleepy. They’re eating from bags in the front seat, some food I don’t recognize, bright colored and crunchy between their molars. They hold the food in their meaty hands like fragile things they’re afraid to break.

When they’re done, they shrivel up the bags with a scritch sound and throw them to the floor. We drive through the snow-clotted streets to a huge white building that they tell me is a hospital.

In an exam room, the doctor waves for me to show my stumps, but I hold them behind my back, and one of the cops has to wrestle my arms into the artificial light.

The doctor’s face turns grim. My stumps are smudged black with fingerprinting ink.

They open up my stumps when I’m sleeping, with small knives and needles, and pack them with bright white cotton until they can steal a patch of skin from my leg. Days later, they cut them again, putting me to sleep with chemicals in suspended plastic bags. It’s a while before I figure out they’re not making me new hands. They can’t do that, the doctor says like I’m slow, and I turn away to glare at the wall, eyes burning.

Growing up, I believed in miracles. I guess I don’t anymore.

· · ·

In the morning, a woman dressed in a mauve suit drops her briefcase on the linoleum in my hospital room and introduces herself as my public defender. She sits heavily on the side of my bed, glancing down at my stumps wrapped in layers of bandages. Beneath the blankets, I shift my feet over a few inches.

“My name’s Juanita,” she says. “And you must be the famous Minnow Bly, yes?”

I watch her out of the sides of my eyes.

“I’m here to provide you with defense counsel during your trial. I’ll also be making sure you get everything you need until you’re transitioned to the next stage.”

“What’s the next stage?” I ask. “Jail?” I’ve heard of jail. The Prophet told us it’s full of people so bad, even the Gentiles don’t want them. They’re angel murderers and God deniers, and some of them can kill with a single touch.

Juanita smiles in a way that isn’t cheerful. “We don’t need to worry about things like that right now.”

She takes me for a walk around the hospital hallways. I can barely get traction in the lambswool slippers they gave me after they stole my boots, and my chest burns when we go more than ten steps. I wonder what’s in my lungs that’s making this so hard. Blood? Smoke? Or something heavier?

Juanita asks if I want her to hold my elbow, but I shake my head. I slide my shoulder down the wall, holding the balls of bandages gingerly before me.

We pause beside a big plastic-paned window, my breath heavy and my arms shaking. Outside in the distance, ash hovers in the air like a dirty cloud. It looks like a heaven nobody’d ever want to go to.

“That’s all that’s left of the Community now,” Juanita says. “They put the fire out, but the air is so stagnant in winter, the smoke is still locked overhead. It burned everything for miles. They say it’ll take a month for the smoke to completely clear.”

“Did—did you hear if anybody died?” I ask.

She turns toward me. “They found two bodies so far, but everything’s snowed in. They’re still looking.”

“Let’s go,” I say. I shuffle away from the window, though my lungs still burn.

· · ·

The nurses give me morphine and the days start to bleed together. I glimpse the shadow of a policeman standing guard outside my room. He’s almost comforting, the bulk of him, and when pictures of the Prophet enter my head, and the hatchet, and the fists of those men, all I have to do is stare at the blue shoulder of the policeman to calm down.

I know he’s meant to keep me in, but I figure he’d also keep anybody else out.

Every other day, a physical therapist visits to teach me about living without hands.

“It will be difficult at first,” she says, and I nod as if the thought hadn’t occurred to me. “You may need to rely on others until you can get routines down yourself.”

She places a pair of sweatpants on the floor and teaches me how to slowly inch the waist up my legs with my stumps. My stumps are round with Ace bandages and every movement shoots an ache through the bone, but eventually I pull the waistband over my angled hips.

She tells me once my stumps are healed, the muscle will thin and they will taper to points, smaller than wrists. They will work like large fingers. I will hardly miss my hands at all.

Chapter 5

Juanita comes to my room just as I’m finishing breakfast, a mush of porridge and some slivered strawberries. She tells me it’s been three weeks since my arrest, and it’s time to start getting serious. I ask her what she means when she upturns a sack stuffed with formal clothes onto the bed. They are machine-made, dyed colors that shouldn’t exist. I shake my head no.

“You have to let someone wash that. You’ve been wearing the same thing since you arrived,” she says, pointing to my shirt. It’s Jude’s. He gave it to me when I stayed at his cabin, right after I lost my hands. It smells, I know, but I won’t let them take it away. It’s the only thing I have left of him.

I wrap my arms around my middle and poke a toe at the pile of clothes. “What for?”

“Court.”

There are a couple of well-worn suits, the seams all limp from multiple uses, and several lank dresses, some ivory, some gray, all dead-looking. She pulls out each dress and presses the hanger into my collarbone, watching the way it falls over my front.

“I don’t want to wear a dress,” I say.

“That’s what everyone says.”

All the dresses are too big. Juanita settles on a blouse opaque enough for me to wear Jude’s shirt beneath, along with a knee-length skirt. She cinches it with a belt above my belly button.

· · ·

On the day of my trial, the outside air is bright and dry, and I get a nosebleed as we pull out of the parking lot. The blood tumbles over my chin before I can call out. Juanita clamps a napkin over my face. I don’t know why, but I’m crying. Warm, slow tears that get absorbed by the napkin and hardly make any noise. That’s how I always cried in the Community, never loud enough for anybody to notice.

The prosecutor uses phrases like “brutal beating” and “left for dead” and “no remorse.” He gestures wildly at the evidence tacked on a corkboard, X-rays illuminating the hairline fracture running along the boy’s mandible, the splash of navy where his spleen ripped open like a broken tangerine.

I glance over my shoulder to where Philip Lancaster sits with his father in a suit too big at the shoulders. His eyes are clear today, lacking the frenzied, shifting look they had that night near the bridge, though I can hear the squeak of his rubber shoes as he jiggles his knees and drums against his legs with flattened palms.

“Members of the jury,” Juanita says when it’s her turn to speak, “the facts of this case are undeniable. A mentally disturbed young man made threats to a girl who had, within the previous twelve hours, survived the destruction of her home. This is a girl who endured years of traumatizing fear. My client’s actions were entirely in self-defense, and the testimony and evidence you hear during this trial will prove her innocence.”

When I look behind me at the watchers gathered on the polished wooden benches, I see Philip resting his fingers inside the opening of his jacket, over the place where I kicked enough times to burst organs. His front teeth bow outward where his mouth was wired shut.

He stares down at me when he passes to take the stand, and I gaze straight into his green eyes. In the fluorescent light of the courtroom, they look unremarkable. Celery-colored and plain. There is nothing there but a boy. A human boy.

Tears pool in my eyes, and after a moment, I start crying loudly, doubled over, my nose almost touching the thickly waxed table. Juanita glances around the courtroom. “That won’t help you, Minnow,” she whispers. “This judge doesn’t have any sympathy for crying.”

I shake my head because everything has become very clear now. How wrong I was, wrong about myself, wrong about everything because there, in front of me, stands the hard evidence of my wrongness, limping in glossy shoes and bruised bones and regular eyes th...

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Now a Morris Award Honor Book, Golden Kite Honor Book, Booklist Editors' Choice, New York Public Library Best Book for Teens, Georgia Peach Book Award Nominee and a Texas TAYSHAS Top Ten Book!

* "In beautiful and harrowing prose, Stephanie Oakes’ debut peels back the veneer of fairytales to reveal their inherent darkness."—Booklist, STARRED REVIEW

* "Suspense, dread, and hope intermingle in Oakes’s charged, page-turning debut."—Publishers Weekly, STARRED REVIEW

* "A truly thought-provoking and spectacular story.” —VOYA, Perfect 10/STARRED REVIEW

"The Scared Lies of Minnow Bly is a psychological thriller, a commentary on our justice system, and a must read book."—Hypable

"A page-turner in the truest form of the phrase."—Bustle

"A profoundly thoughtful and meaningful read...if you care about girls, you should read it. And since everyone should care about girls, everyone should read it."—Teen Librarian Toolbox

"The unravelling of the mystery and the timing of the revelations is masterful, culminating in an explosively rewarding ending. Unflinching, unrelenting and visceral, this one has undeniable adult crossover appeal."—The Globe and Mail

"Based on Grimm’s fairy tale, “The Handless Maiden,” the powerful, fluent writing; engrossing and well-layered mystery; compelling characters; and provocative ideas about family, faith, honesty, loyalty, and friendship are engaging....Ellen Hopkins devotees and fans of The Chosen One by Carol Lynch Williams will seek this one out."—School Library Journal

À propos de cette édition

• Éditeur: Penguin Young Readers Group
• Date d'édition: 2016
• ISBN 10: 0147510163
• ISBN 13: 9780147510167
• Reliure: Broché
• Nombre de pages: 416