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From the beginning of EVERYTHING YOU NEED:
Things could be worse.
Alone on Foal Island and waiting, Nathan Staples turned on his bed. He forced his chest flat to the mattress with a mild flex at his hips, then settled and calmed his breath. A familiar lack was stitching up his arms and then climbing further to jab at his brain. All psychosomatic, he knew, all self-inflicted, but all inescapable just the same. He exhaled with care, sidestepping the start of a sigh. Audible despair depressed him, most especially his own.
But things could, most assuredly, be worse.
The Persian Eye Cups, for example—they were particularly unpleasant, quite turned my stomach when I read about them, as I recall—they would be worse.
The Persian Eye Cups, yes . . . Person, or persons unknown, but presumably Persian, might whip out a pair without warning and fit them on snug. They’d prise back my eyelids and bed the cups right down against the nice curve of my eye and then they’d buckle all the necessary straps—I imagine they’d use quite a few straps, to stop me clawing. I would try to claw. But then I’m quite sure that they’d have their way with me, irrigate each cup with the correct corrosive dose and watch it bite.
I would naturally scream and jabber while my eyeballs both subsided into froth and the acid gobbled up my optic nerve. Tip back my head and my frontal lobes would swash about like hot, grey margarine. I’d be totally fucked. Eventually, all I remember would gargle clear out of my ears in two repellent streams and that would be that.
Which would be worse—of course it would.
He was waiting and didn’t like it. Never had. The wait, this par- ticular wait: it was always so demanding, so predictably calculating and lecherous—give it an inch or a moment and it closed on him in a tingling swarm to his warmer parts. It bit round the cartilage lip of his ears, breathed close to the bare of his neck, it was brazen at his armpits and the quiet joints of his thighs, it made him sweat. His body weight stung down unfairly against his tensing prick, while his thoughts sank and dressed to the left with a stocky tick of blood.
Rubbing an opened wound with living wasps. My wound. My wasps.
Worse.
Or stapling my scrotum to the flesh of my inner thighs and then performing Scottish country dances until I feel my socks congeal.
I think that would be worse.
This was ridiculous. He was ridiculous. A figure of no fun at all, waiting for something which would not happen, could not happen, which should not be considered and surely to God had been set and settled a pathetically long time ago—put to rest on the much larger island near which his was fixed. Surely to God this was over with now, surely she was over with.
Being sodomised by an ill-tempered man using a plaster model of my own grandmother’s arm.
That would be noticeably worse.
He lurched himself up and off his bed. The bare board floor gave the standard, gritty shove at his naked feet and—now he was paying attention—he found he could hardly see. He couldn’t remember the sunset, but against the window, here it was—already night.
He felt for the doorway, the slope of the open door, and then stepped through and into the other room, peering and wary. Nathan was, as usual, far more accepting of imagined injuries than actual, factual knocks at his elbows or toes. Five steps to his left and he’d avoided the usual vicious clip from his table top, another two and he could safely shuffle forward to palm the wall and find the switch and then sway dumbly under the violent impact of instantaneous light. His dog twitched in its basket, but stayed asleep, eyes ticking and chasing behind closed lids. Outside, the lisp and murmur of the sea became a little more assertive.
Nathan gentled over to his bookshelves, eased a folder out, opened and dipped inside it, feeling for the photograph. There. The slick give of the surface, the catch of a corner, the touch of a border fast and thin enough to cut.
Want what’s worse? What’s really worse? Then let’s come and fucking get it. All the way.
The fully cocked and loaded photograph—tonight, he was going to look at it again. No need to be just sad when he could be truly, thoroughly suicidal.
As if you can choose. As if you can help it. As if you haven’t, just to spite yourself, been asking for it all night. No more games, now—if anyone deserves a head fuck . . .
I know—it’s me.
And don’t say a little bit of you won’t like it. After all, your head is your only private part that still has any chance of getting fucked.
So we part the mind wide open, spread the thinking till it cracks. Take in the view.
A snapshot view he knew so well now that he saw it quite imperfectly: either in rushes of terrible detail, or a kind of anonymous smudge. Here was the beach, still barred with weed and rock; the pale, refractive spill of pools; the green of algae; all aligned to make a neat perspective that slashed away to nothing and the edge of the frame. Lying along the horizon was a sliver of sea, much more confident and solid than the bleachy sky.
Had he ever been here? Inhaled the raunchy, dead salt scent of it all under that wincing sun? Leaned against the cool, fat sea wall? Chucked stones? Chucked anything? It looked like so many uneasy, unwelcoming Scottish beaches that Nathan never could put a definite name to it.
His attention began to scrabble at the image, hoping, in the customary way, that a proper mental focus would make the picture pliable, snap it out into three dimensions and comprehensibility.
Tangibility.
From the Latin tango, tangere—to touch. Something tangible possessed the ability to be touched. Nathan had ambitions in that area, even now. Although, quite obviously, he was being touched already, in a way. His own imagination was performing a type of well-informed rape: penetrating him painstakingly with a ghost, with a time past restoring, an unreachable skin.
You’ve got a nerve complaining. You love it.
It’s all I’ve got.
But you don’t have to love it.
But I do. That’s what makes it worse.
Even so, he didn’t have the heart to look too long or closely at the picture, at its figure, at her. He couldn’t bear to pick out the soft curl of her body, pale in the rocks, and would only skip and brush across her, cradling the whole composition by its sides and staring beyond it to his dog, who was, undoubtedly, enjoying the gruff and healthy doggy dreams that gruff and healthy doggies tended to.
“Hey,” Nathan whispered, meaning no harm, “hey. Rabbits. Rabbits,” and his dog’s left forepaw shivered once or twice with a tiny desire to chase. Nathan softened his voice, barely murmured, “Not now, though. Not now.”
Nathan lifted one hand to his forehead tentatively—as if his skull might really be as fragile as it felt, as liable to flatten into uselessly thoughtful mush. When he edged his right thumb over in a minor exploration, its joints began to ache distressingly. He’d staved it a couple of weeks ago, punching Joe Christopher, and it was now a constant reminder that one should never punch one’s friends or that, if one did, one should first check the proper positioning of one’s fist.
“Nathan, you’re not being serious.”
“Am I ever anything but?”
“Nathan . . .” Joe had drolled out his name with an unmistakable note of sympathy. Joe was always full of sympathy and understanding—that was a lot of what made him such an irritating shit. “Nathan . . . you don’t mean it.”
“Of course I mean it—who wouldn’t mean it? I don’t fucking trust him. Like I don’t fucking trust anyone. Actually. Now that you ask . . .” He’d known he was being too loud here—it was the wine and the Sunday lunch—all that starch and protein and gravy-flavoured sweat. “Jesus.” Joe hated religious swearing, so Nathan had tried that again. “Jesus fuck.” Joe’s mouth had given a prissy little twitch—serve him right for being so uptight. “I mean—you grow up and you get a bit of common sense, right? Caution.” Nathan’s hands had lifted in a kind of wavery, Al Jolson plea and had begun to infuriate him. He’d known he was looking silly and hot and drunk.
“But you’re not.”
“Not what?”
“Like that.”
“Like what?” Some people went deaf when inebriated. Nathan was not that particular brand of person—he had simply been faced by a man who refused to speak with anything even approaching comprehensibility.
“Untrusting. I mean, you trust us. Don’t you?” Joe had smiled, gleaming with group solidarity.
And the group had, of course, been solidly there and watching. They’d surrendered their own conversations, the better to gawp: Richard, Lynda, Louis, Ruth: all of them waiting for Nathan to slip into something more florid, aggressive, bad.
“Now, you know I’m not talking about . . .” He’d felt himself obliging them, becoming more idiotic with each unsteadied breath. “That’s just not . . . When you make this to do with everyone else . . .” He’d frowned fuzzily.
“But who don’t you trust? Here.” There’d been no malice in the question—Joe, being Joe, was never malicious, only implacably and precisely curious. Also, he liked to take hold of a person’s thinking and pat it about like butter, square it up into something neat and digestible, if mildly sickening. But Nathan was never the buttery type—that afte...
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Things could be worse.
Alone on Foal Island and waiting, Nathan Staples turned on his bed. He forced his chest flat to the mattress with a mild flex at his hips, then settled and calmed his breath. A familiar lack was stitching up his arms and then climbing further to jab at his brain. All psychosomatic, he knew, all self-inflicted, but all inescapable just the same. He exhaled with care, sidestepping the start of a sigh. Audible despair depressed him, most especially his own.
But things could, most assuredly, be worse.
The Persian Eye Cups, for example—they were particularly unpleasant, quite turned my stomach when I read about them, as I recall—they would be worse.
The Persian Eye Cups, yes . . . Person, or persons unknown, but presumably Persian, might whip out a pair without warning and fit them on snug. They’d prise back my eyelids and bed the cups right down against the nice curve of my eye and then they’d buckle all the necessary straps—I imagine they’d use quite a few straps, to stop me clawing. I would try to claw. But then I’m quite sure that they’d have their way with me, irrigate each cup with the correct corrosive dose and watch it bite.
I would naturally scream and jabber while my eyeballs both subsided into froth and the acid gobbled up my optic nerve. Tip back my head and my frontal lobes would swash about like hot, grey margarine. I’d be totally fucked. Eventually, all I remember would gargle clear out of my ears in two repellent streams and that would be that.
Which would be worse—of course it would.
He was waiting and didn’t like it. Never had. The wait, this par- ticular wait: it was always so demanding, so predictably calculating and lecherous—give it an inch or a moment and it closed on him in a tingling swarm to his warmer parts. It bit round the cartilage lip of his ears, breathed close to the bare of his neck, it was brazen at his armpits and the quiet joints of his thighs, it made him sweat. His body weight stung down unfairly against his tensing prick, while his thoughts sank and dressed to the left with a stocky tick of blood.
Rubbing an opened wound with living wasps. My wound. My wasps.
Worse.
Or stapling my scrotum to the flesh of my inner thighs and then performing Scottish country dances until I feel my socks congeal.
I think that would be worse.
This was ridiculous. He was ridiculous. A figure of no fun at all, waiting for something which would not happen, could not happen, which should not be considered and surely to God had been set and settled a pathetically long time ago—put to rest on the much larger island near which his was fixed. Surely to God this was over with now, surely she was over with.
Being sodomised by an ill-tempered man using a plaster model of my own grandmother’s arm.
That would be noticeably worse.
He lurched himself up and off his bed. The bare board floor gave the standard, gritty shove at his naked feet and—now he was paying attention—he found he could hardly see. He couldn’t remember the sunset, but against the window, here it was—already night.
He felt for the doorway, the slope of the open door, and then stepped through and into the other room, peering and wary. Nathan was, as usual, far more accepting of imagined injuries than actual, factual knocks at his elbows or toes. Five steps to his left and he’d avoided the usual vicious clip from his table top, another two and he could safely shuffle forward to palm the wall and find the switch and then sway dumbly under the violent impact of instantaneous light. His dog twitched in its basket, but stayed asleep, eyes ticking and chasing behind closed lids. Outside, the lisp and murmur of the sea became a little more assertive.
Nathan gentled over to his bookshelves, eased a folder out, opened and dipped inside it, feeling for the photograph. There. The slick give of the surface, the catch of a corner, the touch of a border fast and thin enough to cut.
Want what’s worse? What’s really worse? Then let’s come and fucking get it. All the way.
The fully cocked and loaded photograph—tonight, he was going to look at it again. No need to be just sad when he could be truly, thoroughly suicidal.
As if you can choose. As if you can help it. As if you haven’t, just to spite yourself, been asking for it all night. No more games, now—if anyone deserves a head fuck . . .
I know—it’s me.
And don’t say a little bit of you won’t like it. After all, your head is your only private part that still has any chance of getting fucked.
So we part the mind wide open, spread the thinking till it cracks. Take in the view.
A snapshot view he knew so well now that he saw it quite imperfectly: either in rushes of terrible detail, or a kind of anonymous smudge. Here was the beach, still barred with weed and rock; the pale, refractive spill of pools; the green of algae; all aligned to make a neat perspective that slashed away to nothing and the edge of the frame. Lying along the horizon was a sliver of sea, much more confident and solid than the bleachy sky.
Had he ever been here? Inhaled the raunchy, dead salt scent of it all under that wincing sun? Leaned against the cool, fat sea wall? Chucked stones? Chucked anything? It looked like so many uneasy, unwelcoming Scottish beaches that Nathan never could put a definite name to it.
His attention began to scrabble at the image, hoping, in the customary way, that a proper mental focus would make the picture pliable, snap it out into three dimensions and comprehensibility.
Tangibility.
From the Latin tango, tangere—to touch. Something tangible possessed the ability to be touched. Nathan had ambitions in that area, even now. Although, quite obviously, he was being touched already, in a way. His own imagination was performing a type of well-informed rape: penetrating him painstakingly with a ghost, with a time past restoring, an unreachable skin.
You’ve got a nerve complaining. You love it.
It’s all I’ve got.
But you don’t have to love it.
But I do. That’s what makes it worse.
Even so, he didn’t have the heart to look too long or closely at the picture, at its figure, at her. He couldn’t bear to pick out the soft curl of her body, pale in the rocks, and would only skip and brush across her, cradling the whole composition by its sides and staring beyond it to his dog, who was, undoubtedly, enjoying the gruff and healthy doggy dreams that gruff and healthy doggies tended to.
“Hey,” Nathan whispered, meaning no harm, “hey. Rabbits. Rabbits,” and his dog’s left forepaw shivered once or twice with a tiny desire to chase. Nathan softened his voice, barely murmured, “Not now, though. Not now.”
Nathan lifted one hand to his forehead tentatively—as if his skull might really be as fragile as it felt, as liable to flatten into uselessly thoughtful mush. When he edged his right thumb over in a minor exploration, its joints began to ache distressingly. He’d staved it a couple of weeks ago, punching Joe Christopher, and it was now a constant reminder that one should never punch one’s friends or that, if one did, one should first check the proper positioning of one’s fist.
“Nathan, you’re not being serious.”
“Am I ever anything but?”
“Nathan . . .” Joe had drolled out his name with an unmistakable note of sympathy. Joe was always full of sympathy and understanding—that was a lot of what made him such an irritating shit. “Nathan . . . you don’t mean it.”
“Of course I mean it—who wouldn’t mean it? I don’t fucking trust him. Like I don’t fucking trust anyone. Actually. Now that you ask . . .” He’d known he was being too loud here—it was the wine and the Sunday lunch—all that starch and protein and gravy-flavoured sweat. “Jesus.” Joe hated religious swearing, so Nathan had tried that again. “Jesus fuck.” Joe’s mouth had given a prissy little twitch—serve him right for being so uptight. “I mean—you grow up and you get a bit of common sense, right? Caution.” Nathan’s hands had lifted in a kind of wavery, Al Jolson plea and had begun to infuriate him. He’d known he was looking silly and hot and drunk.
“But you’re not.”
“Not what?”
“Like that.”
“Like what?” Some people went deaf when inebriated. Nathan was not that particular brand of person—he had simply been faced by a man who refused to speak with anything even approaching comprehensibility.
“Untrusting. I mean, you trust us. Don’t you?” Joe had smiled, gleaming with group solidarity.
And the group had, of course, been solidly there and watching. They’d surrendered their own conversations, the better to gawp: Richard, Lynda, Louis, Ruth: all of them waiting for Nathan to slip into something more florid, aggressive, bad.
“Now, you know I’m not talking about . . .” He’d felt himself obliging them, becoming more idiotic with each unsteadied breath. “That’s just not . . . When you make this to do with everyone else . . .” He’d frowned fuzzily.
“But who don’t you trust? Here.” There’d been no malice in the question—Joe, being Joe, was never malicious, only implacably and precisely curious. Also, he liked to take hold of a person’s thinking and pat it about like butter, square it up into something neat and digestible, if mildly sickening. But Nathan was never the buttery type—that afte...
From the prodigiously talented A. L. Kennedy comes a flamboyantly stylish and fiercely emotional novel about fathers and daughters, creation and self-destruction, and love’s paradoxical power to heal its most devastated victims. One such victim is Nathan Staples, a writer whose hilarious contempt for humanity is surpassed only by his corrosive self-loathing. Along with five equally dysfunctional colleagues Nathan lives on an island retreat off the coast of Wales, where he yearns for the daughter he lost years before. Now, in defiance of all his hopes, Mary Lamb–herself an aspiring writer–is about to join him as the seventh member of the colony.
As Nathan tortuously wins the trust of the child who has no inkling of their true relationship, Mary comes to a gradual understanding of her gift. In Everything You Need, A. L. Kennedy combines the mythic resonance of Arthurian legend with a sensibility as lyrical as it is profane.
As Nathan tortuously wins the trust of the child who has no inkling of their true relationship, Mary comes to a gradual understanding of her gift. In Everything You Need, A. L. Kennedy combines the mythic resonance of Arthurian legend with a sensibility as lyrical as it is profane.
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- Date d'édition2001
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