When Skateboards Will Be Free: A Memoir of a Political Childhood - Couverture rigide

Sayrafiezadeh, Said

Couverture rigide

ISBN 10 : 0385340680 ISBN 13 : 9780385340687

Editeur : Dial Pr, 2009

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Chapter One
My father believes that the United States is destined one day to be engulfed in a socialist revolution. All revolutions are bloody, he says, but this one will be the bloodiest of them all. The working class–which includes me–will at some point in the not-so-distant future decide to put down the tools of our trade, pour into the streets, beat the police into submission, take over the means of production, and usher in a new epoch–the final epoch–of peace and equality. This revolution is not only inevitable, it is imminent. It is not only imminent, it is quite imminent. And when the time comes, my father will lead it.

 Because of such urgency I do not see my father very often. This despite the fact we both live in New York City. Weeks pass. Months pass. Then a year. At times I will begin to wonder if I will ever hear from him again, but just as I do, a postcard will arrive from Istanbul, or Tehran, or Athens, or Minneapolis, where he has gone to attend this or that conference or to deliver this or that speech. “The weather is beautiful here,” he will write in enormous swirling optimistic cursive that fi lls the white space, leaving room to say nothing more. We’ve had our moments, though, over the years. My eighteenth birthday–the fi rst time we had been together for any of my birthdays–my father astounded me by giving me a Walkman, by far the most expensive present I’d ever received. Then for my nineteenth birthday I stayed an entire week with him and his wife–his second wife–taking photographs, watching movies on the VCR, and playing Scrabble late into the night, where, even though my father is Iranian and English is his third language, he beat me nearly every time. We also took a long walk one Sunday afternoon, just him and me, to the aquarium at Coney Island, sitting side by side in the winter air while we watched as a walrus swam back and forth in its cement pond. Later at the café I was so nervous about being on my best behavior that I knocked over an entire cup of coffee onto his lap. “Sorry, Pop. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.” And every Sunday morning during my freshman year in college he would call to ask if he could help answer any questions I might be having with Algebra 101. He is a professor of mathematics, after all. 

But first and foremost my father is a member–a comrade–of the Socialist Workers Party. He is a leading comrade, in fact, and has been for almost all my life. The responsibilities he chooses to undertake include, but are not limited to, editing books, writing articles, giving speeches, teaching political classes, attending book sales, demonstrations, rallies, meetings, conferences, picket lines . . . By the time I was in my early twenties my father had again begun to disappear behind this massive workload of revolution, and his phone calls grew increasingly infrequent until they ceased altogether, and our joyful reunions became more like occasional punctuation marks in long paragraphs of silence. 

One summer night, when I was twenty- seven years old, I took my girlfriend to Film Forum in the West Village to watch a documentary on Che Guevara. When the movie was over, I came out of the theater to see my father standing on the sidewalk behind a table with an array of books published by Pathfi nder Press, the publishing house of the Socialist Workers Party. Che Guevara Speaks. Che Guevara Talks to Young People. The History of the Russian Revolution. Imperialism: The Highest Stage of Capitalism. A handwritten banner was draped over the front of the table with a quote by Castro that read “There will be a victorious revolution in the United States before there will be a victorious counterrevolution in Cuba.” In my father’s hand, displayed for all to see, was that week’s issue of The Militant. 

“Sidsky!” my father called out, using his invented Russified diminutive of my name, which has never failed to endear him to me. 

“Pop!” I said. 

“How was the movie, Sidsky?” 

“I liked it,” I said. 

And my girlfriend, who cared little for politics and had never even heard of Che Guevara before I had told her about him, said, “I liked it too.” 

“I see,” my father said, looking fi rst at my girlfriend and then at me. It was obvious by the expression on his face that we had given the wrong answer. I thought of backtracking and adding qualifi cations to my opinion, but before I could think what those qualifi cations could be, he said, “Let’s have dinner tonight. What do you say? There’s a nice restaurant right around the corner.” 

I agreed, of course, wholeheartedly. The only hitch was that my father had to wait for the next showing of the documentary to let out, ninety minutes from now, and then he had to put all the unsold books away and fold up the table, so my girlfriend and I walked fourteen blocks through the West Village to my studio apartment to sit patiently by the phone, growing hungrier by the minute. And when my father fi nally called it was to say, sorry, a last- minute meeting had suddenly been scheduled, he could not see us tonight, but we would defi nitely do it again sometime soon, he promised, the three of us, soon. 

“Oh, I can tell you’re disappointed!” my girlfriend said, throwing her arms around me, kissing me. 

“No, I’m not,” I said, but I was. 

And then the phone rang again, and it was my father again, but this time he was saying that the last- minute meeting had just been rescheduled, and, yes, he could have dinner now, right now, he was excited to see us, how soon could we be there? So my girlfriend and I hurried the fourteen blocks back through the Village to meet him at the nice restaurant around the corner from Film Forum, where we ate and drank our fi ll while he explained to us everything we had misunderstood about the movie. 

Not long after that, I began to have feelings of claustrophobia around my girlfriend. We had been together for just one year, but all the excitement had worn away. I cringed at her affection. When she would ask if I had missed her after a few days apart, I would cruelly delight in telling her I had not. I broke up with her fi nally in front of Monet’s Water Lilies at the Museum of Modern Art for what was supposed to be the beginning of a fun- fi lled weekend at her parents’ house in upstate New York. And my father, almost about the same time, divorced his second wife of ten years. But while I remained single, unable to summon the courage to ask anyone out, sitting alone in the front row of Film Forum every weekend with regret, he had begun to date with gusto, beginning with a twenty-eight-year-old comrade from the party. When I saw him next, it was in his new apartment in Brooklyn, shabby and unpainted, but I knew he didn’t care. The apartment had a hollow, empty, unlived- in feel, like he was just moving in or just moving out. The reality was that he had already been there six months. There was hardly anything in the place except for a large desk in the living room littered with memorandums from the Socialist Workers Party. And next to the desk was a plant about to die. Next to the plant were two bookcases. One fi lled with forty- five volumes of the collected works of Lenin, including letters to relatives. And the second with forty-nine volumes of the collected works of Marx and Engels, also with letters to relatives. These had been given to him by his second wife one Christmas when times were still good. I remembered that Christmas. I had been there for it. Standing in the dim light next to the dying plant, I wondered if he had had the chance yet to read every volume. I wondered if I should read every volume. 

My father abandoned me when I was nine months old, and with only a few exceptions I did not see or hear from him for eighteen years. “Mahmoud went off to fi ght for a world socialist revolution,” my mother would tell me with proud determination when I was a little boy. Mahmoud. The name always sounded so ornate, so exotic, coming from my mother’s mouth, and it emphasized the fact that my name was also exotic, while my mother was Martha Harris (née Finkelstein), a Jewish American, born and raised in the small town of Mount Vernon, New York. The divisons and allegiances, therefore, were various. 

In any event, the logic behind my mother’s explanation was that the separation with my father was only temporary and, once this socialist revolution had been achieved, he would return to us. It was only a matter of time. Neither of us ever dared state this belief aloud–it was unmarked and liquid–but we subscribed to it silently, like a well-kept secret among friends. And thus, since the night of my father’s departure, she began to save herself for him, denying herself a sexual or even a personal life, never bothering to find either another husband for herself or a surrogate father for me. Indeed, she even consented to stay married to my father so that he could continue to live and work legally in the United States. Moreover...

Revue de presse :

“[Saïd Sayrafiezadeh is a name] that you may want to remember...if this exacting and finely made first book is any indication...[He] writes with extraordinary power and restraint...[His] prose has some of [Isaac Bashevis] Singer’s wistful comedy, and good deal of that writer’s curiosity about the places where desire, self-sacrifice and societal obligation intersect and collide.”—New York Times

“[Sayrafiezadeh] writes with grace and clarity about growing up juggling deprivation and desire.”—Time

“Sayrafiezadeh looks back with wonder, even humor, at the many difficulties he faced in his childhood...[He] maintains a generous spirit throughout this eloquent memoir.”—Washington Post

“A memoir is a bold thing to write so young, but the author pulls it off with pathos and humor, proving some histories are best written early.”—GQ

“[A] wry, lovely memoir.”—O: The Oprah Magazine

"Once I began When Skateboards Will Be Free, I couldn't put it down but to sleep. So rending a memoir, it reaches the reader's innermost consciousness. Its language has the fierceness and humor of a Charles Dickens story about childhood." —Paula Fox, author of Desperate Characters and Borrowed Finery

"Said Sayrafiezadeh has a wry, deadpan sense of humor, an exceptionally open heart, and the wisdom of a true outsider. When Skateboards Will Be Free shows us exactly how he came into possession of these rare qualities. This is a fantastic, beautifully written memoir." —Scott Smith, author of A Simple Plan and The Ruins

"When Skateboards Will Be Free is a brave, honest and elegant book. It felt like the story was being whispered in my ear. I haven't read a memoir in quite a while that has so skillfully made sense of an American childhood." —Colum McCann, author of Zoli

"Sad, angry, hilarious, heartbreaking, and brave—When Skateboards Will Be Free does everything a fine memoir should, and more. That Said Sayrafiezadeh survived his childhood in one piece would be triumph enough, but this beautiful book expands that personal triumph into art. It belongs on the shelf next to the best modern memoirs." —Dani Shapiro author of Black and White and Family History

"Sayrafiezadeh's memoir is lucid, heartbreaking, finally uplifting. This is a jail-break of a book. I loved it." —Thomas Beller, author of The Sleep-Over Artist and How To Be a Man

“Do not pity Sayrafiezadeh his childhood of deprivation—wonder at his ability to transform poverty into comedy and genuine suffering into joy.” —Sean Wilsey, author of Oh the Glory of It All

"This is a remarkable memoir of a fragmented childhood." —Dalia Sofer, author of The Septembers of Shiraz

"When Skateboards Will Be Free is fraught and funny and haunting. Sayrafiezadeh never flinches, but neither does he stint on compassion. A wonderful recounting of a childhood, this book is also a powerful exploration of how belief binds families, and tears them apart." —Sam Lipsyte, author of Home Land

“ Haunting ... A memoir full of surprises.”—Booklist

À propos de cette édition

• Éditeur: Dial Pr
• Date d'édition: 2009
• ISBN 10: 0385340680
• ISBN 13: 9780385340687
• Reliure: Relié
• Nombre de pages: 287