Friday Nights - Couverture rigide

Trollope, Joanna

Couverture rigide

ISBN 10 : 0747591768 ISBN 13 : 9780747591764

Editeur : Bloomsbury Publishing PLC, 2008

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Chapter One


Toby’s mother said that when Eleanor came he’d have to go down to the ground floor and help her with the lift.

Toby said — sulkily, because he was angry with her for something he couldn’t quite put his finger on — ‘She doesn’t need help.’

His mother was standing in front of the mirror she had propped on top of a chest in her bedroom. She was arranging her hair in a complicated kind of knot, and she had a hairclip between her teeth.

Through it she said without looking at him, ‘Toby, this isn’t about need. It’s about manners.’

Toby kicked one foot clumsily against the other. Then he went out of his mother’s bedroom and banged the door shut and leaned against it. This door, his mother’s bedroom door, was one of only a few doors in the flat. There was just that door, and the front door and the door on the bathroom. The rest was just space. Upwards, outwards, sideways. Just space.

‘I live in a loft,’ Toby said to someone when he’d started his new school.

Several boys had stared at him, elaborately uninterested.

‘Whatever,’ they’d said.

‘I do,’ Toby had said to himself silently all that day. ‘I do.’ And then, ‘My father bought it.’

He had. Toby’s father had bought the loft two years ago, and had given it to Paula and Toby.

‘Conscience money,’ Paula’s friend, Lindsay, said.

Paula hadn’t replied. She put the photograph of Toby’s father on the black rattan chest between two of the huge high windows. It was a photograph taken on a boat, and Toby’s father was sitting on the roof of the cabin, and he was smiling. His feet were bare. The photograph did not, however, include Toby’s father’s wife and children who were, Toby knew, the reason why he and his mother lived in the loft on their own.

‘At least,’ Paula said sometimes to Toby, when she got very loving and then very angry, ‘at least you know who your father is.’

What she meant by that Toby hadn’t the faintest idea. And he certainly wasn’t asking. Occasionally, if he was alone in the flat while Paula went to buy a newspaper, or to collect the dry-cleaning, he would pick up his father’s photograph and lay it face down on the black rattan chest.

‘You just stay there, Gavin,’ he’d say. ‘You just do as you’re told.’

He sighed now. He wanted to be back in his mother’s bedroom, but he had made that impossible. He sighed again. The loft looked enormous in the gathering gloom, as if the walls and ceiling were quietly dissolving into the darkness, just melting away so that the night could pour in. Paula had lit her lamps, the lamps that threw light up into the dusky spaces, the lamps that let light fall on to her orange cushions and the rug striped like a zebra. She had put glasses on the low table between the sofas because people were coming, glasses and bowls of varnished Japanese rice crackers. People were coming. Eleanor was coming.

Toby pushed himself away from the door and stood up. He liked Eleanor. She walked unevenly with the help of a stick, and her hair was a white fuzz, and she talked to him as if he might have an opinion worth hearing. He also liked how his mother was with Eleanor, how she was calm and able to think about things that weren’t automatically going to upset her. Eleanor once said to Toby that the older she got the more she preferred the universal to the individual and personal. Toby had wondered if she was talking about galaxies.

He went slowly across the living space, avoiding, as usual, actually treading on the zebra rug. On the far side, a metal staircase resembling a ladder with perforated treads rose up in the dimness to the platform where Toby’s bed was, and his computer, and the toy theatre for which he collected puppets. He climbed the ladder slowly, a deliberate tread at a time, until he was out of the glow of the lamps and into the privacy of darkness. Then he sat down on the top step of the ladder and leaned forward, until his chin was on his knees, and he sighed again. Friday nights.
It was Eleanor who had started these Friday nights some years back, after observing from the bay window of her front room two young women endlessly trailing up and down that low-built street in Fulham. One had a baby and one had a small boy. They were never together, and they were never, as far as Eleanor could see, accompanied by a man.

Eleanor had seldom been accompanied by a man herself, but then she had never had a baby or a small boy either. Watching the young women, she had seen what she had so often seen during her long working years as an administrator in the National Health Service — manifestations of those brave coping mechanisms devised by people concerned not to be pitied for being alone. Being alone, Eleanor knew, was not in itself undesirable: it was the circumstances of aloneness that made it either a friend or a foe. And being alone with a small dependent child, and thus in a situation considered by the conventional world to be ideally a matter of partnership, was not a situation for the faint-hearted. Sometimes, Eleanor thought, watching them over the top of her reading glasses, the set of those young women’s shoulders indicated that their hearts, for all the outward show of managing, were very faint indeed.

One day, seeing them both approaching from opposite ends of the street, she had limped out on her stick into a sharp spring wind and offered to babysit. Both had been extremely startled, and both had demurred. The girl with the baby said she couldn’t leave him. The young woman with the small boy said she had no money. Eleanor said she didn’t want money. The young woman said, somewhat desperately, that she couldn’t handle obligation.

Eleanor leaned on her stick. She took off her reading glasses and let them hang round her neck on the scarlet cord she had attached in the hope of not losing them.

‘Then do me a favour,’ Eleanor said.
The girls waited, sniffing the wind.

‘Let me be the obliged one,’ Eleanor said. ‘Come and see me. Bring the children. Come on Friday night.’

They came, mute with awkwardness. The baby slept in his pram. Toby, aged almost three, squirmed on the sofa under a crocheted blanket and threaded his fingers endlessly in and out of the holes. Eleanor opened a bottle of Chianti, and poured out large glasses. She learned, with patience and difficulty, that Paula, Toby’s mother, could not, for some reason, live with Toby’s father. She learned that Lindsay, mother of baby Noah, had been widowed when her husband, a construction worker, had been crushed by a cement slab.

‘It was a year and three months ago,’ Lindsay said. She looked across at the pram. ‘I didn’t even know I was pregnant.’

‘Nobody should be required to bear that,’ Eleanor said.

Lindsay said quickly, still looking at the pram, ‘I’m not bearing it.’

They did not, either of them, seem to know how to arrange themselves, nor when to leave. At ten o’clock, Eleanor got stiffly to her feet and said that she was afraid it was her bedtime. They went out together, with the pram and the pushchair, hardly looking at her as they said goodbye. Eleanor, beginning on the nightly ritual of closing and locking and bolting, thought how often it was the case that a small good intention was snatched out of one’s hands by human conduct and inflated into something much larger and much less manageable. She regarded herself dispassionately in the looking glass let into the art deco coat stand in her hall.

‘Persevere,’ Eleanor told herself. ‘Keep going.’

Three Fridays later, they came again. Eleanor had seen Lindsay in the newsagent’s on the corner of the street, and Paula comforting Toby who had fallen out of his pushchair while struggling against being strapped in. They had not accepted with enthusiasm, but they had not refused either. Eleanor made pâté, and bought French bread, and chocolate, and juice for Toby in a small waxed carton with a straw. Lindsay brought six mauve chrysanthemums in a cone of cellophane printed to resemble lace. Toby climbed out of the crocheted blanket and drank his juice on his mother’s knee and stared at Eleanor’s hair. They had stayed until ten-fifteen, and Paula had been able to look straight at Eleanor for a few seconds and say uncertainly, ‘That was kind of you.’

Eleanor took her glasses off.

‘If kindness isn’t just a form of self-interest, thank you.’

A few weeks later, Lindsay asked if she could bring her younger sister. She looked at a point just past Eleanor’s left ear while she asked this, and the request became entangled in a long and confused explanation of how Lindsay’s parents’ inability to parent in any sustained way had left Lindsay as the only person in her sister’s life who could provide any mothering. It was an anxious task, Lindsay implied, since her sister seemed to have inherited her parents’ taste for a wild and irresponsible life. She was working in a club in Ladbroke Grove as a warm-up disc jockey when she could get the work, and Lindsay was worried about the ways in which she was spending her free time.

‘What is her name?’ Eleanor said.

‘Julia,’ Lindsay said.

‘Jules,’ Jules said, when she came. She had red-and-yellow striped hair and was wearing a flowered tea dress over thick black leggings and heavy laced-up boots. She had on purple lipstick. Toby stopped staring at Eleanor’s hair and stared at Jules instead. She stared back, her bitten-nailed hands wrapped round a...

Présentation de l'éditeur

It's Eleanor who starts the Friday nights. From her window she sees two young women, with small children, separate, struggling and plainly lonely, and decides to ask them in, and see what happens. What happens is that a group gradually forms, a group of six different and disparate women, who become a circle of friends. They range in age from Jules, who is twenty-two and wants to be a DJ, to Eleanor herself, who is a retired professional and walks with a stick. They include one wife, three mothers, three singletons and five working women. They all of them, variously, value Friday nights. And then one of them meets a man - an enigmatic significant man - and the whole dynamic changes. The bonds that have been so closely forged are tested - and some of them break. With wit and warmth, Joanna Trollope explores the complexities, the sabotages, and the shifting currents of modern friendship.

À propos de cette édition

• Éditeur: Bloomsbury Publishing PLC
• Date d'édition: 2008
• ISBN 10: 0747591768
• ISBN 13: 9780747591764
• Reliure: Relié
• Nombre de pages: 336