Every Little Thing in the World - Couverture rigide

De Gramont, Nina

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ISBN 10 : 141698013X ISBN 13 : 9781416980131

Editeur : Atheneum Books for Young Readers, 2010

Synopsis

Every Little Thing in the World From the author of the adult novel "Gossip of the Starlings" comes this young adult story that turns a familiar predicament--teen pregnancy--into an unforgettable journey for one girl. Full description

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chapter one
not telling

Natalia and I stole her mother’s new blue Cadillac and drove out to Overpeck to find Tommy. Natalia steered inexpertly, lurching her way from the luxurious oaklined streets of Linden Hill, New Jersey—lush lawns and stately manors—to the spindly birch trees and ranch houses of Overpeck, aluminum siding and green awnings everywhere.

“Are you sure Tommy will be at this party?” I asked her.

“Pretty sure,” Natalia said. She drummed her French-manicured nails nervously on the wheel. I couldn’t tell if her uneasiness stemmed from our mission or from driving itself. This was our first night together after being grounded for two weeks, and we had promised Natalia’s parents we wouldn’t set foot outside the house. Natalia had a newly minted learner’s permit, but no license. As I wasn’t due to begin driver’s ed until school started again in the fall, I didn’t exactly qualify as the licensed driver who was supposed to be sitting beside her.

It was late in the day, hours after dinner, but the sun still hung stubbornly in the sky. I loved this time of year, early summer, with months of leisure and possibility still ahead. My part-time job—lifeguarding at the local country club where most of my school friends belonged—didn’t start for another ten days, and it would mostly involve dozing behind sunglasses and working on my tan. Even the prospect of confronting Tommy couldn’t entirely interfere with the happiness this kind of bright summer night infused in me. Sparrows perched on swinging telephone wires, and the dull slant of sunlight promised that although darkness was taking its time, night would arrive before too long.

The car rattled over potholes and a crooked set of railroad tracks. Natalia parked between an ancient Toyota truck and a battered Chevy Impala. We stepped out of the car and slammed the doors, gravel crunching underneath our feet. Next to the collection of hand-me-down vehicles, the Cadillac looked elegant and out of place. Not unlike Natalia herself—lean, sleek, and raven-haired—picking her way over the splintery post fence and gliding through the tall, wet grass on the strappy designer sandals that had originally belonged to her older sister. Natalia had a funny, endearing face. Her dark eyes were a little too far apart. She had a pronounced bump on the bridge of her nose, and a gap between her two front teeth. Despite her slim body and beautiful clothes, other girls never noticed Natalia until they registered every guy in the world swooning as she walked by.

“Come on, Sydney,” she said, waving her arm toward the woods ahead.

I lagged behind her, my sneakers instantly damp and squishy. We crossed a rickety old playground and followed the voices. I could smell a festive blend of wood and cigarette smoke, possibly cigars and pot.

The scent reminded me of Tommy, and I felt suddenly ill. “Natalia,” I called. “Wait up a second.”

Natalia stopped, looked at my face, and backtracked to my side. She put her hand on my shoulder as I wrapped my arms around my own middle.

“I’m not sure I can do this,” I said.

“What’s wrong?” Natalia said. “Are you nauseous? Is it morning sickness?”

I looked at her as if she’d gone completely insane. “No,” I said. “Definitely not.” I uncrossed my arms and started walking again. Natalia’s hand slid off my shoulder, and she strode back to her place in front of me.

No matter what she might think, no matter what the pregnancy test had told me, I knew that the prickly nausea in my middle was most definitely not morning sickness. Apart from my missed period, I had zero symptoms. There had been no barfing, no craving pickles and peanut butter, no swollen breasts. No nothing. I felt so exactly normal that I still didn’t really believe it, even though I’d used all three of the sticks that came in the EPT box, and every one had produced two pink lines. It didn’t seem possible that something so huge—so catastrophic and monumental—could be going on inside my body, while I looked and felt exactly like my usual sixteen-year-old self.

I had taken the tests at Natalia’s house on the very day I was supposed to get my period and fully expected the results to relieve the vague anxiety I’d felt these last two weeks. Afterward, Natalia and I lined them up on the bathroom floor. Then we called the 800 number listed on the box. We sat next to each other, our backs pressed up against the pink porcelain bathtub with lion’s feet. Natalia’s parents were very old, and from Hungary. They spoke in thick accents and decorated with lots of gilt and animal figurines, the kind of details my mother considered tacky.

Before we called, Natalia had promised me that she would do the talking. But as soon as the customer service rep answered, she thrust the phone into my hands.

“Hello?” the customer service rep said, to my silence.

“Um, hello,” I said. “I just took a pregnancy test? And there are two lines, but the second line is faint. It’s very, very faint. So I was wondering, is this a positive result?”

“If there are two lines,” she said, “it’s a positive result, no matter how faint the second line is.” I could hear all sorts of sympathy in her voice. No matter how low I tried to pitch my voice, whenever I answered the phone at home, whoever was calling always said, “Is your mother there?” Obviously the customer service woman could tell I was not some twinkling bride, all giddy to give my husband the joyful news. “You do need to see a doctor to confirm,” she said, which sounded vaguely hopeful.

After I thanked her and hung up, Natalia dug her mother’s extra car keys from her bedroom bureau. We left our cell phones—which our suspicious parents had equipped with GPS tracking devices—on Natalia’s frilly canopy bed. (Natalia always apologized for that bed. “I know,” she would say. “It’s completely childish.” But her mother considered it the height of girlish luxury, and Natalia couldn’t bring herself to tell her it was a total embarrassment.)

Now we walked through a muddy state park, toward the keg party that Overpeck High School seniors threw at the end of every June. It was here that Natalia had met her boyfriend, Steve, last year, the two of them becoming the Romeo and Juliet of the twenty-first century.

I held the white pharmacy bag that contained the EPT box and used tests in my right hand. I hadn’t brought them along as any kind of proof for Tommy, I just didn’t want the evidence within a ten-mile radius of Natalia’s house or mine. The first garbage bin I saw, I opened up the lid and pushed the bag deep inside, burying it under McDonald’s wrappers and dented soda cans. The odor of garbage didn’t help the swirling, nauseated ball in my gut, which was not about being pregnant, I still felt sure, but the anticipation of seeing Tommy again. Not that he was a bad guy. It was just that I hardly knew him. It felt wrong and bizarre, telling him something so personal.

“This seems really pointless,” I said, positioning myself directly behind Natalia. “I don’t see what he’s going to do. I don’t see why I should even tell him.”

“Of course you have to tell him,” Natalia said, striding forward with great purpose. “He’s the father.”

The nausea widened. If Tommy was the father, what did that make me?

Almost as soon as we stepped through the trees, the blue sky gave way to dusk. I could see Steve, standing by the keg. He wore a white T-shirt cut off at the sleeves, and a knit wool skullcap, even though it was about eighty-six degrees. I don’t think I ever saw him without that cap. He waved at us, or at Natalia anyway.

“Don’t tell him,” I hissed at Natalia.

“I won’t,” she said, not looking back at me, but walking straight into Steve’s arms. He held her tight, the muscles on his forearms taut and sinewy, the set of his jaws and his closed eyes looking totally sincere in his happiness at her presence, and in his love for her. My own chest tightened as Steve’s eyes fluttered open—shimmery, gray-blue eyes. He nodded hello at me, his True Love’s best friend.

Steve poured a beer for Natalia and one for me. “Is Tommy around?” Natalia said casually. She dipped her fingers into the cup of beer and flicked the foam to the ground. “Sydney needs to talk to him.”

“Sure,” said Steve. “He’s around here somewhere. I think I saw him head down to the railroad tracks with a couple guys.”

“It’s not important,” I said, sipping my beer without getting rid of the foam. I could feel the mustache forming on my lips. “If he’s busy.”

Steve shrugged. “They’re probably just getting high.”

He put his arm around Natalia’s shoulders, and I wiped my mouth and followed them down the hill. Now that it was dark, people were arriving by the carload. I jostled my way through laughing bodies, not recognizing anybody. Even in Linden Hill, Natalia and I would have been strangers in a gathering like this. We went to the private day school, where parties mostly involved stolen bottles from our parents’ liquor cabinets. Last year Natalia and I had come here with my then boyfriend Greg, who’d heard about the event from one of his older brothers. Natalia and Steve had locked eyes immediately, and over the summer she had—in quick succession—lost her virginity and ruined her relationship with her parents. They didn’t want her to have anything to do with a borderline juvenile delinquent who was not Jewish and whose father worked at a gas station.

Usually when a friend got a serious boyfriend, it meant seeing a lot less of her. But Natalia and Steve’s relationship required so much plotting, it had brought Natalia and me closer together than ever. Natalia’s romance with Steve somehow made all our lives much more exciting, our evenings fueled with the arrangement of secret meetings and plans. Twice she and Steve had run away together—both times discovered before daybreak (the Overpeck police knew Steve well, and they were always glad to help Natalia’s parents keep her away from him).

I didn’t know if trains still ran over the Overpeck railroad tracks. Part of me thought I had heard them in the distance on some of these foggy, partying nights. But maybe that was just my imagination. They certainly didn’t look fit to hold any kind of weight—crooked and cracked, with ancient wood slats crawling with ants and termites. I let Natalia and Steve cross the tracks, then I stood on that rotting wood a minute, almost like I hoped one of those phantom trains would come hurtling down the tracks and mow me down, saving me from all this: the supposed life inside me and all the miserable errands it would require. I could see three teenage boys by the brook that trickled over flat rocks and moss. They all looked completely alien. I couldn’t imagine that I was here to tell one of them this terrible secret about myself, one that I still didn’t totally believe.

“Sydney,” Natalia called. “Come on.”

I walked forward. At the sound of Natalia’s voice, all three boys looked our way. I heard them say hello to Steve, and then Natalia. They weren’t passing a joint back and forth like I’d expected, but a bottle in a brown paper bag. I recognized Tommy, leaning against a tree as if he needed it to hold himself up.

He had shoulder-length hair, not thick and curly like Steve’s but fine and shiny. He was short and slight, not much bigger than myself. I’d first met him a month or so before, at a pizza parlor in Overpeck when Natalia and I skipped third period so Steve could pick us up and take us to lunch. That day I’d thought he was very cute in a boy band sort of way, with puppy-dog eyes, smooth skin, and perfect teeth. Afterward, through Natalia, Tommy had relayed messages of how hot he thought I was, how nice and pretty. A week or so later Natalia slept over at my house, and we snuck out after my mom went to bed. Steve and Tommy picked us up at the end of my street and we drove to Flat Rock Brook Park. While Steve and Natalia disappeared up the nature trail, Tommy and I sat on the swings and shared a pint bottle of peach schnapps. I ended up kissing him, and then having sex with him, not because I especially liked him, but because I was flattered by how much he liked me.

I know how that makes me sound. But I wasn’t a slut. I had never been a slut. The only other guy I’d ever had sex with had been my boyfriend Greg. We’d gone out all last year, and we’d been in love—not a great romantic drama like Steve and Natalia, but still in love. It had taken me months to decide whether to sleep with Greg, and when I finally did, it was a big event, with roses and soft lights and good French wine stolen from his dad’s cellar. Then we broke up, because of a blond cheerleader who now held hands with him in the halls at school.

So when I found myself making out with Tommy in the park, kind of drunk—adored again, for a minute anyway— I went ahead and had sex because that was what I did now. It was like after all those months with Greg, I’d forgotten how not to have sex. It was only afterward, picking the dry leaves out of my hair and saying an awkward good-bye––that I realized the whole thing had been, if nothing else, entirely unnecessary. I wasn’t even sure if I wanted to see him again. But then the next weekend rolled around, and Natalia had the bright idea that the four of us should go to her house at the shore. It seemed like so much fun to be part of a foursome—with my own Overpeck boyfriend, instead of just being Natalia and Steve’s third wheel. Who knows? I thought. Maybe Tommy and I could be Romeo and Juliet too, except for the fact that my mother would probably like Tommy, who looked so generally harmless.

We took the bus down to Red Hook, where we met the boys and took a taxi to Natalia’s. Thank God we didn’t get caught until Sunday afternoon. While we were heading back on the bus, Kendra Hirsch’s mom had called mine for a copy of the summer reading list. No, she said, Natalia and I were not with them in the Berkshires that weekend. Luckily, by that time Natalia and I could pretend we’d gone to the shore with just each other—earning us two weeks of being grounded instead of a firing squad.

Of course if we’d been caught on, say, Friday, with or without boys, I might not have been standing here, supposedly pregnant from those few attempts at my own wayward romance. I stared at Tommy, who in the hazy dusk looked not only very cute, but extremely drunk and about thirteen years old. I wondered what telling him could possibly accomplish. What was he supposed to do? Marry me? The idea brought a faint, scratchy laugh to my throat. Unlikely as that prospect was, Tommy was equally unlikely to have five hundred dollars, or however much it cost for an abortion.

“Tommy,” said Natalia. She reached out and put her hand on his shoulder. He seemed like he needed to be woken up. “Look. Sydney’s here.”

He raised his eyes to mine. They looked filmy and unfocused, like they probably had the three or four times we’d been together. His skin looked flushed, a faint patch of pink on each cheek. Although he’d probably started shaving as a point of pride, he definitely didn’t need to. His face looked very young, very open, and nothing whatsoever to do with me.

“Hey,” Tommy said. He pushed himself off the tree and stepped forward with a lurch. “Hey, baby,” he said, then tripped over a root and fell flat on his face, landing splayed out at my feet. The bag and bottle slipped out of his hand, not breaking on the soft ground, but seeping through the brown paper and soaking my already wet sneakers with a pungent smell that I’d never be able to hide from my mother.

I stepped back, defeated. “Forget it,” I said to Natalia, handing...

Revue de presse

Critically acclaimed adult author de Gramont makes her YA debut in this novel of summer transformation. After 16-year-old Sydney learns that she is pregnant, she and her glamorous best friend, Natalia, try to track down the boy Sydney had sex with and end up in trouble with the police. Sydney keeps her secret from both her frustrated, divorced mother and her father, who ships her off to a Canadian summer camp. Natalia joins her, and as the girls paddle through the wilderness, they wrestle with Sydney’s options. Friction grows as Natalia speaks out against abortion and then begins a charged friendship with Mick, a troubled kid who uses the n-word and claims to have killed a man. The author writes with frank authenticity about teens: their inner and outer dialogues, their gradual self-awareness, and their puzzling choices, particularly about sex. The girls’ ultimate acceptance of Mick, for example, feels both realistic and unsettling. More than Sydney’s dilemma or the camp dynamics, though, it’s the parent-child relationships, both loving and fraught, that may resonate most with YAs.

— Gillian Engberg, BOOKLIST, March 15, 2010

Sixteen-year-old Sydney has just learned that a casual fling has left her pregnant (“I hadn't felt like I knew him well enough to remind him about the condom issue”). When Sydney's best friend Natalia steals her mother's car to take Sydney to confront the father, the girls are caught, and Sydney's father signs Sydney up for a one-month canoe trip to help her rethink her life's direction. And Sydney does plenty of thinking, even after Natalia finagles her way onto the wilderness trip, which comes with some physical and emotional highs and lows. Sydney's turmoil about the pregnancy (she's kept it from her parents and plans to have an abortion when she returns) is realistic and well plotted; she faces added pressure from Natalia who, after revelations about her own birth circumstances, partly sees herself in Sydney's baby. Sydney's complex relationships with her single mother and idealistic but distant father are authentic and poignant. In her first novel for teens, de Gramont ably captures Sydney's reflective journey from a passive girl to a young woman ready to make the biggest decision of her life. Ages 14–up. (March 1, 2010) - Publishers Weekly

A deft and poignant exploration of reproductive choices. In spite of informative sex-education classes at her private school in New Jersey, 16-year-old Sydney Biggs gets pregnant with a boy she barely knows from a nearby, less-affluent town. Her best friend, the "lean, sleek, and raven-haired" Natalia Miksa, is the only one she tells. When the girls are caught by the police for ostensibly stealing Natalia's parents' car to sneak out to a party, Sydney's angry and worried mother sends her to live with her rigid (anti-processed-food) father, who thinks that a month at a wilderness adventure camp, canoeing on a lake in Ontario, will be good for her. She's part of a group of eight campers, including Natalia, a tattooed "Youth at Risk" and two young counselors. De Gramont's compelling coming-of-age story, often poetic, compassionately probes the dilemma of and complex choices surrounding Sydney's pregnancy. As told from Sydney's point of view in an authentic adolescent voice, her growing self-awareness of "what's discovered after losing your way" is both moving and hopeful. (Fiction. 14 & up)
KIRKUS Reviews

À propos de cette édition

• Éditeur: Atheneum Books for Young Readers
• Date d'édition: 2010
• ISBN 10: 141698013X
• ISBN 13: 9781416980131
• Reliure: Relié
• Numéro d'édition: 1
• Nombre de pages: 288