IN THIS RAIN.

Book by Rozan SJ

Chapter One

Sutton Place
Ann Montgomery sped up the Thruway thinking about Joe Cole's garden.

The old garden, the one at the house that wasn't Joe's anymore: she couldn't keep her mind off it. Its chaos of color and scent, shape and size. Its bright gleams and secret shadows.

How amazed she'd been, the first time she'd seen it. Joe had led her through the house, a shipshape sparseness that didn't surprise her, suiting well her new partner, so precise, methodical, soft-spoken, and civil. The wood floors and white walls stood in quiet contrast to the asphalt anarchy outside the front door; but outside the back she found a wild extravagance that stopped her, openmouthed. She'd turned to Joe to find out who the gardener was, himself or the thin-lipped Ellie who'd looked her up and down at the door. But Joe's eyes weren't on her. She followed his gaze to a vine loosed from its stake, a flower head faded but not yet cut, and she didn't have to ask.

Intense, powerful, this memory of Joe and his garden: but not enough to distract her from the highway or her location on it. She was coming up on the exit she'd never taken, that led to the college she'd never been near. There, the concert hall, to honor the man whose will endowed it, bore his name, which was the same as hers.

Ann added speed, pushing the car through curves. As she'd done for distraction and for buttressing since she was nine, she called Jen.

Not that Jen would answer. Sunday morning? Once, they'd been party animals together, dancing wherever the music was, drinking whatever was served, and though Ann these days preferred her own den, Jen was still joyfully on the prowl.

"Hey, get up," she said into the air, her cell phone on speaker in its car cradle. "The sun's shining. You remember the sun, I'm sure you've seen it. Guess where I'm going, win a prize. You have an hour till I'm there. Get on it, girl."

Brief, that phone message, but it took her past the college exit, this highway's only pitfall. The pounding storm that had started Friday night and hung stubbornly on through yesterday had left shiny roadside puddles and scrubbed the air clean. She loved to drive this road: her joy in it had led to guilt each time she'd taken it to the prison, to see Joe. She'd never told him how she'd looked forward to the wide sky (he could see a slice of sky from his cell), the rolling land (the prison's grounds sloped steeply), and the feel of soaring through it (he could go nowhere in the prison without permission). Odd, she thought, that though now he was out, she was heading up to see him along this same road.

It was her father who'd taught her to drive like this, fearlessly and fast, when she was too young to be legally behind any wheel, when, with her father beside her, she feared nothing. Lean into it, Annie, he'd say. Be part of what's coming, not what is. Her mother preferred the back seats of limos and cabs and to this day complained about Ann's driving.

"After what happened to your father I'd have thought you'd want to be more careful."

"Nothing 'happened' to him. You and that bastard, that's what happened to him," Ann always answered, because it was true and because it made her mother turn away, her lips pressed into a thin hard line.

Flying up the left lane, Ann was forced to slow behind a blue SUV cruising at sixty-five. She flashed the Boxster's lights, crept closer. Nothing. She gave the SUV the lights again and hit the horn.

He acted as though she weren't there.

Veering right, she moved alongside, held a moment, then shot ahead. As she swerved in front of him she slowed to sixty. His shiny bulk loomed in her mirrors. He blared his horn and flashed his lights.

She acted as though he weren't there.

Another blare, and he gunned the big engine; she had Tosca in the CD player but the blue SUV had so much power under that overgrown hood she could hear him anyway. He charged into the right lane; she sped up so he couldn't pass on her right. Hell with you, you s.o.b., she thought, though she didn't know him, didn't know what was on his mind, any more than she knew what had been on her father's when he skidded his Ferrari through a curve and slammed into a stand of trees outside Zurich twenty years ago.

She was yanked back from that Swiss hillside by a cloud-splitting horn blast and a shriek of brakes. In her mirror a Toyota sprayed gravel as it peeled onto the shoulder. The blue SUV wove wildly back behind her, then steadied and slowed. The Toyota, which must have been tooling along in the right lane unseen by the SUV–God knew she hadn't seen it–squealed to a stop.

Ann held her breath and listened. Nothing: No scream of metal or crash of glass. She watched in the mirror as the Toyota edged back onto the road, its driver probably still cursing out the guy in the SUV. He had a right. Bastard almost killed him.

The bastard who'd been driving the legal limit in the proper lane until he'd pissed Ann Montgomery off.

Shit. Her hands pounded the steering wheel. She glanced back once more, then sped up and left them both behind.

The second act of Tosca came to an end. She tried to swallow away the sour taste in the back of her throat. No harm, no foul. And goddammit, maybe next time that SUV bastard would pull over when someone wanted to pass him.

No. He wouldn't. He'd never get it. The next time, he'd be the same jerk. People don't change.

Yes, they do, she argued with herself. A baby can distinguish between sounds that seem the same to adults, a skill that fades once a child starts talking and learns which sounds are useful. A person changes like that: by discarding pieces, littering the roadside with what he doesn't need.

If he's lucky, she thought, racing up the highway. Sometimes–a crumpled car, skid marks on slush–what a person throws away is something he really should have kept.
Chapter Two

Harlem: 134th Street
T. D. Tilden leaned on the water tank steel and fired up a blunt. No way he was walking to the edge of the roof again, look down like some bitch wondering where her date got to. Not going to let this nigger get him stressed.

The first hit made him less jangly, like it always did. He looked at the clouds running across the sky. Truth was, sometimes he come up here just to hang. This roof, he could sit and draw, no one saying Yo, lemme see that shit. He drew the clouds, and the buildings, sometimes these right here or ones from his head, too, the ones he was going to build when he had his business. Sometimes he drew the flowers from the next-door backyard. He'd wave down at the old lady there and she'd always wave back.

No, not so bad up here. Just, this Kong fucker should have more respect. Making him wait every damn time, what was up with that? T.D., he liked to be on time. It showed you knew what business was and you wasn't scared of it.

T.D. watched the clouds some more and got lost in a movie in his head, him going off to his business. Setting his Kangol on, kissing Shamika goodbye. He could see her baby-don't-go smile, but he the man of the house. Got to take care of business.

Or maybe Shamika come with him. Shamika be his secretary at his office high up in some glass building, one of those buildings downtown he never been in yet but he been seeing them all his life past the roofs of Harlem. Shamika been working for Mr. Corrington for a year, so she knew all what secretaries got to know, typing, all that. Damn, he liked that idea. Shamika, sitting at a big desk, saying Mr. Tilden too busy to talk to you now.

That made him smile. Shamika wasn't like other girls T.D. knew. She didn't run around announcing his private business. He could talk to Shamika, like about this Kong asshole, he could brag on himself and he wouldn't find it coming back at him from the street.

Thinking about Kong messed up his mellow mood. The way Kong talked when he told T.D. what he wanted him to do next. Like T.D. was some retard, like what Kong wanted him to do was so hard. Even coming with those drawings that one time. Kong don't know about T.D., how he don't need drawings, how you tell T.D. something, he see the picture in his head. Well, how he gonna know? T.D. sure as hell ain't about to tell him, just like he ain't told Kong he know Kong wasn't the one drew those drawings. You could tell from how he explained them to T.D., someone else had to explain them to him.

Sure, job like this might be hard, if you was big and clumsy. That's why Kong didn't come with T.D. no more, T.D. knew that. Too busy, that was bullshit. The first job, Kong almost got their asses caught, all his noise clomping up that damn scaffold. Then taking out that drawing again, like T.D. wasn't about to remember? T.D. knew what the job was, he knew what to do. Truth was, he'd know which of them damn bolts to pull without ever seeing no drawing. It just worked that way with him. He knew what was holding what up, just by looking. But that was another thing he wasn't about to tell no one.

Anyhow, it was easier without Kong. T.D. was quick, he was quiet, he could slip in and out of places like a shadow. Sometimes, climbing on this water tank steel right here, he almost thought he could fly. Like if he let go the steel he'd swoop down close to the rooftops, for a second or two look like he was bound to hit something, but he'd soar back up again. Kong was lucky he found T.D., that was definite. Kong should be more grateful, not disrespect T.D. like he do.

The money wasn't that good, neither, now he thought about it. Maybe he'd tell Kong that. These three jobs, they was–what was it, when you was in the union? "Apprentice," that was the word–they was apprentice jobs. Now you seen what I can do, you got to pay more. Yeah, that's what he'd tell Kong. Serve the fucker right, always keep him waiting.